Overcome

On a rainy lazy Saturday afternoon, sitting on the couch and petting my dog, I'm thinking how to kill time.. My cousins have come home, my uncle, aunt and a family friend from abroad who's staying with us for couple of days. So many people around yet I feel so bored and isolate myself. I have my exams in 2 days and don't even feel like studying ! To top everything , power cut ! The whole house is quiet except for my uncle's snore and my granny in the other room, talking endlessly to someone over the phone !

This went for for about 40 odd minutes and I was thinking to myself "God how much does she talk? She's only whiling away her time either watching boring soap operas or talk with someone or the other over the phone." I have tried a million times to pull her from the chair and take her for a walk but her age and health issue won't let let walk not more than few steps continuously !

Only then it occurred to me ! My grandad passed away just 3 months before I was born ! Which means she has been without her companion for 21 YEARS !!! :O

Damm! I looked at my doggy who I was petting and even the slightest thought that if something happens to her brought tears in my eyes then imagine if it was your life partner who you love so much so dearly ? How the hell did granny manage to put up without grandpa for 21 years ??? She had 7 kids by her side ! 6 girls and one son ! Out of which only 2 daughters were married !

She was 52 when grandpa died ! She had no insurance, she didn't get any money from his office which was supposed to come for him even before his death nor after ! A lady so old, with nothing but 10th grade certificate, no work, had put up with her husband's death and now all her children and happily married, well settled and she's blessed with 9 grandchildren ! Wow ! What an achievement !

I mean, today if any girl loses her husband, you have so many insurance policies to help you financially , so many amount of jobs you can do right from sitting at home till going abroad ! We infact have so many options that we are spoilt for choices !

Yes she did have her daughters and son to support her but in the era where women committed suicide or became weak after their loved one's death, she put up against all odds to make her children happy !

Only then I realised, why she keeps talking with people so much, why soap operas and temples are her favorites ! She does not have a company like we do ! Friends and family are always there but a spouse completes them all ! Specially when you know them like the back of your hand. Even with people around, my doggys, phone, books, internet, TV, car, you name it and it was there and I was still bored. I can't think of a life without all this but our grandparents could.
Now I remember the quote which Albert Einstein said "Only one who devotes himself to a cause with his whole strength and soul can be a true master. For this reason mastery demands all of a person." Hats off to all of them who had overcome this kind of a situation!

Clinging on to Faith!

Somewhere in the middle of the night,when you are almost falling asleep, you suddenly wake up and realise tears falling down your cheeks. You won't understand why but tears just keep flowing but this time even more. Flashes of millions of memories cross your mind. All the good and the bad ones. The ones you cherish and the ones you regret. But this moment comes when you realise, the bad ones don't matter because the good ones take over and makes you feel much better. It puts a smile on that teary face. It kinda gives you a small hope and adds to the radiance of the face.

Now you realise why you cried. You realise the reason and the person or rather people behind it. Though there are so many people around you to take care of you, to love you and be with you specially when you really need them the most and that too even without you asking, you realise you still feel incomplete!

You think more. You think even harder. What is that which makes you feel incomplete? You cry harder because you realise, to feel complete you need one person right next to you. That person is closer than you think but yet so far!

Life always plays cruel jokes at you at unexpected moments and you are just rudely brought down to earth. In the end, it's again you and faith. True love is a very real, lasting and a giving emotion. Which is why, if two people are meant for each other, it doesn't mean they have to be together right now... but they will eventually!

"Be faithful in small things because it is in them where your true strength lies. Faith consists in believing when it is beyond the power of reason to believe."