Overcome

On a rainy lazy Saturday afternoon, sitting on the couch and petting my dog, I'm thinking how to kill time.. My cousins have come home, my uncle, aunt and a family friend from abroad who's staying with us for couple of days. So many people around yet I feel so bored and isolate myself. I have my exams in 2 days and don't even feel like studying ! To top everything , power cut ! The whole house is quiet except for my uncle's snore and my granny in the other room, talking endlessly to someone over the phone !

This went for for about 40 odd minutes and I was thinking to myself "God how much does she talk? She's only whiling away her time either watching boring soap operas or talk with someone or the other over the phone." I have tried a million times to pull her from the chair and take her for a walk but her age and health issue won't let let walk not more than few steps continuously !

Only then it occurred to me ! My grandad passed away just 3 months before I was born ! Which means she has been without her companion for 21 YEARS !!! :O

Damm! I looked at my doggy who I was petting and even the slightest thought that if something happens to her brought tears in my eyes then imagine if it was your life partner who you love so much so dearly ? How the hell did granny manage to put up without grandpa for 21 years ??? She had 7 kids by her side ! 6 girls and one son ! Out of which only 2 daughters were married !

She was 52 when grandpa died ! She had no insurance, she didn't get any money from his office which was supposed to come for him even before his death nor after ! A lady so old, with nothing but 10th grade certificate, no work, had put up with her husband's death and now all her children and happily married, well settled and she's blessed with 9 grandchildren ! Wow ! What an achievement !

I mean, today if any girl loses her husband, you have so many insurance policies to help you financially , so many amount of jobs you can do right from sitting at home till going abroad ! We infact have so many options that we are spoilt for choices !

Yes she did have her daughters and son to support her but in the era where women committed suicide or became weak after their loved one's death, she put up against all odds to make her children happy !

Only then I realised, why she keeps talking with people so much, why soap operas and temples are her favorites ! She does not have a company like we do ! Friends and family are always there but a spouse completes them all ! Specially when you know them like the back of your hand. Even with people around, my doggys, phone, books, internet, TV, car, you name it and it was there and I was still bored. I can't think of a life without all this but our grandparents could.
Now I remember the quote which Albert Einstein said "Only one who devotes himself to a cause with his whole strength and soul can be a true master. For this reason mastery demands all of a person." Hats off to all of them who had overcome this kind of a situation!

Clinging on to Faith!

Somewhere in the middle of the night,when you are almost falling asleep, you suddenly wake up and realise tears falling down your cheeks. You won't understand why but tears just keep flowing but this time even more. Flashes of millions of memories cross your mind. All the good and the bad ones. The ones you cherish and the ones you regret. But this moment comes when you realise, the bad ones don't matter because the good ones take over and makes you feel much better. It puts a smile on that teary face. It kinda gives you a small hope and adds to the radiance of the face.

Now you realise why you cried. You realise the reason and the person or rather people behind it. Though there are so many people around you to take care of you, to love you and be with you specially when you really need them the most and that too even without you asking, you realise you still feel incomplete!

You think more. You think even harder. What is that which makes you feel incomplete? You cry harder because you realise, to feel complete you need one person right next to you. That person is closer than you think but yet so far!

Life always plays cruel jokes at you at unexpected moments and you are just rudely brought down to earth. In the end, it's again you and faith. True love is a very real, lasting and a giving emotion. Which is why, if two people are meant for each other, it doesn't mean they have to be together right now... but they will eventually!

"Be faithful in small things because it is in them where your true strength lies. Faith consists in believing when it is beyond the power of reason to believe."

Two words with big meanings!

How can these two words, love and forgiveness change your whole perspective on life? Little do we all realise that must put our trust in something bigger than ourselves. We may call it God, Spirit, Buddha, Jesus, whatever our faith is, trust that they have a bigger plan than our everyday troubles. Love and Forgiveness are the two most important lessons we learn. But how do you get to the Love part if you have hatred in your heart? Forgive. It sounds so simple and yet it can be the most difficult and complex thing that we can do in this lifetime.

You were wronged or someone betrayed you, how can you let that go? Forgive. Forgive and it will really set your heart free. Feel your anger, feel your sadness, feel whatever it is you need to get all those emotions out, write it down and then throw it away. Give yourself a certain timeframe in which you will no longer continue to go on with those emotions. Now comes the hard part, trying to convince yourself that the other person deserves to be forgiven. Every time this hurt comes into your heart, say to yourself "I forgive him/her for what they have done". Every time you start to go over the scenario, and start to get angry or sad, instead replace it with "I forgive him/her for what they have done". You might not believe what you are saying at first. But sending that message out into the universe will eventually help break the chain of black energy that links you together with an invisible line of hate. Trust me, it works! Hopefully it will hit one day if you really tried. You can let it go, the hate, the anger, the betrayal, how you were victimized and in a peaceful loving moment truly feel that forgiveness.

What does it feel like? Once you have set each other free, your heart feels lighter, you have an overwhelming feeling of peace. You suddenly understand it all, the reason you are here, the lessons that you need to learn while on this earth plane. You will never be the same, because in every circumstance you can begin to feel compassion, humility and gratitude toward your fellow travelers here on earth. You can LOVE again. You are a radiant being moving forward in life.

Afterall, even Dumbledore from the famous Harry Potter series says this particular line to Harry “If there is one thing Voldemort cannot understand, it is love. He didn't realize that love as powerful as your mother's for you leaves it own mark. Not a scar, no visible sign . . . to have been loved so deeply, even though the person who loved us is gone, will give us some protection forever. It is in your very skin.”

I can never forget these lines which rings in my head over and again every now and then! It makes me realise what it means to love and be loved. Not just your partner but, your family, friends, pets and even enemies because the only things I personally feel that will change a person is not imprisonment or physical punishment but, Love and Forgiveness. It kills them. It sends so much amount of guilt and agony that they change. Change for the good! It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.

Somewhere in the night

Somewhere in the night a child cries,
A woman weeps and someone dies.
Somewhere in the night, humanity hides.

Somewhere in the night , a soul screams,
As people fade and die, lost in dreams.
Somewhere in the night, reality lives.

Somewhere in the night loneliness dwells,
As people die, no sounding bells.
Somewhere in the night, she dies alone.

Somewhere in the night ...

Where is the light?

The Precious Heart of Stone

The look of that person, speaks to me about a lost world, hurt feelings, deep confusions, a wonderful but, wounded heart.

It is a soul who goes around in the world, suffering and crying out that his heart is of stone. It does not want, not for an instant to sense what he feels. It is a force that burns, drowns and accuses. He surrenders in his heart to the greatest terrible expressions. And he says to himself: ”My past frustrations plunged me in the darkness, where, I have the security of the nothing. I have a heart of stone, which is harder than steel, colder than ice because I keep in it a secret, a secret of Love, which I want to contain, to trap, to suffocate because it reminds me that I have life, that there is blood under my skin, that the passion raises me, that the desire consumes me and the tenderness fascinates me. But I chain myself and at the same time, I escape. I fill myself with thorns, I surround myself with monsters and I get together with trash. And in this way, I allow to feel the dignity. I bury myself under everything and under nothing. I want to hide my face because I want to flee from True Love.

My heart is of stone, it has become hard and even in front of the powerful ones, its power is stronger because I do not want to let know that an angel of light inhabits inside.
My heart is of stone and to my surprise, it is a transparent diamond, where the light is reflected. This light liberates me of doubts and fears and I can no longer avoid it; this heart of stone is a heart of light. It is translucent and crystalline. I can’t avoid it since the tear of Love has penetrated deeply and only in it and through it, I will know the reality of my being. My heart is of stone, of a precious stone, which wants to surrender, you only have to come and look for it.”

Opening Eyes To A New World

Many a times we find ourselves right in the middle of a storm. We see nothing is working in our favor. We see our loved ones and near ones are growing apprehensive about our own abilities. We get this feeling like our life is of no use. We feel like our existence or non-existence doesn't make any difference.

All of us go through such time at some stage of our life. Many call it rough patch but think again. Is it really as rough as we are making it look? Maybe not. How do we decide if a time is rough for us or good? What actually is a rough time or good time?

It's nothing but a state of mind.

When certain things take place, people say it was destined to be. But how? Who made it be so?

We - our deeds.

Whatever happens or occurs in our life, understandable or inexplicable, all things are subsequent to our previous deeds. Nothing bad is destined or nothing good is pre-written. So if things are not looking pretty, maybe it's the time to have a look at yourself.

No one is born evil or no one is born genius. It is just how we perceive things in our life and what we want to make of our life. When everybody is looking down upon you that is the time to rise above all. That is the time to introspect to bring out your hidden talent, your strength.

Think of a thing that a man really wants and he can't get. Nothing. There is nothing we cannot achieve with all we have. But we need genuine will power to make it happen.

First, one has to believe in oneself. Only then can one make other people believe. Truly said, you cannot build your credit on what you are going to do. So let your deeds speak.

Look inside you and open your eyes to a new self-realizing world. Your whole world lies within you. So when the outer world has come to its limit, find a shelter in your inner-self.

Explore your soul. Make a promise to yourself to change the tides in your favor and let your action do the rest.

It can be quite a difficult task to overcome all those negative vibes that surroundings might be suggesting to you. But sometimes listening to your own heart is better than going by what others have in their might. You cannot hold them wrong too.

You might have made some mistakes but that is not the end point. It's never too late to make a new beginning.

Life is full of opportunity. If you can't see them, then create them.

But don't let negative forces overpower you. When all around you are pulling you down, cut all those strings of doubts and fly high.

Prove yourself against all the odds, for that period will count the most important in your life when you were all alone and when you came out as the winner. When everybody writes you off that is the time to show best of you.

So what are you waiting for?

Let's enter that new world and have a new start.

Little Angles !

Pets have always been a part of the human world. They are excellent companions and without them, chances are we would be lost and unable to tell our secrets to the world. Most of us know the positive effects of having a pet, especially what a pet dog can have on our lives. The wagging tail, the grinning mouth and the look of utter devotion in their ever melting eyes are few such pleasures we get when we come home after a long tiring day. Watching their funny and silly antics, can always keep us cheerful and make us forget our blues. Dogs can force us to exercise more, laugh out loud and can follows us all day long around the house, wagging their tail and make us feel very special. When it is a lazy Sunday and we are home, watching T.V with our dogs at our feet or lying alongside on our bed while we are reading a book, its defiantly pure nirvana.

If you consider bringing home a dog, then be aware that they also require high maintenance, tons of love, care and understanding of course oodles of feeding. But then, the fact that pet owners are less likely to suffer loneliness and depression covers up for all these and after all, “We live in a society where we do not like to cry in front of people but, a larger number of people who can cry in front of their pets, their little angles.”.

Growing up

Yes, almost gonna be 21!
I’ve learned who to trust
and who to close the eyes to!

I don’t forgive people because I'm weak. I forgive them because I'm strong enough to know that people make mistakes.

You spend twelve years of your life trying to learn how to live, but every time you to try to live in those twelve years you're told you're wrong. Then everyone you've grown to love is taken away and scattered. That's what they should teach you. How to say good-bye and let go.

The young faces we see in our old albums represent times when our biggest worries were Barbie and Ken's wedding, GI Joe's missing arm, whether I had enough Lego’s to build a fort, and why we had to eat vegetables at dinner again. Looking at these pictures today, sometimes we, the grownups, wish we could go back to such lighthearted days. But at the same, time moving on with our lives, making new memories, and gaining independence have become exciting realities that were once ideas that seemed so far away. Since sixth grade we have counted down the days until graduation. Now as the day approaches we are still anxious, but somewhat nervous. The faces in these pictures remind us of the people we once were and still are, the friends we have grown up with and also whom we will graduate with. Surviving the past 12 years wasn't easy, but in that time we had some of the best experiences of our lives. Those times are what made it meaningful.

When I was little I had this idea that life could be perfect. That if you were careful enough, you'd never make a mistake, never be lonely, never be misunderstood, never be frightened, but it doesn't work that way. Life is big and messy, and you just have to climb in it with your boots on and hope for the best.

Half of life is messing up; the other half is dealing with it. The catastrophe of life isn’t that it ends too soon it’s that we wait too long to begin it. Live life so completely that when death comes to you like a thief in the night, there will be nothing left for him to steal.

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something in your life.

"Maybe if everyone had a little bird on their shoulder and every morning woke up and said 'Is today the day I’m going to die' people would live life differently." -Tuesdays with Morrie. (One book I’d recommend everyone to read)

Life is too short to be distracted by the opinions of others.

The hardest thing about growing up is that you have to do what's right for you even if it means breaking someone's heart, including your own.

By living each day to its absolute fullest you not only sleep better at night but you are one step closer to your dreams.

Take chances. Tell the truth. Learn to say no. Spend all your cash. Fall in love. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Fight with your best friend. Laugh at a stupid joke. Cry. Hug. Don’t believe in revenge. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a jerk what you feel. Let someone know what they're missing. Laugh till your stomach hurts. Take a lot of photos. Dance in the rain. Admire the nature. Go for a turtle walk with someone you love. Never lose hope and faith. Take some time alone. Meditate.
That’s my way of living life.

There is not a shred of evidence to support the theory that life is meant to be serious because “If you carry your childhood with you, you never become older.”